Food journal - Day 3

8:30am - Some cereal, sans milk. It wasn't very much, I might cook up 2 pieces of bacon just for some protein. I also want some hot chocolate, I am so so tired and it wakes me up so nicely! I tried another crossword yesterday, but it was super hard and I didn't get very far. I have been doing well overall though. I am volunteering today! I can't wait, I absolutely loved it last week.

9:15 - Just made some muffins! I will definitely be eating one of those for lunch and probably packing another to bring to school with my hamburger & macaroni. I think I need some more veggies and fruits in my life haha. There are blueberries in the muffins ;) Now, what to make for supper?

I ate a muffin & half my hamburg and macaroni for lunch at 11:30, then brought another muffin to eat in class. I also had a french vanilla cappuccino... I thought some caffeine would help get me through the most boring class in the world but it actually made it way worse - I was NOT liking having to sit still!

6:00 - I had a lot of bacon while waiting for the rest of my supper to cook haha... like 5 pieces or so. Turkey bacon, though. I had fetticuine with alfredo sauce - not the healthiest choice but quick and easy after a super long day. The original plan was fried eggs but then I noticed the sauce in the fridge.

10:00 - C. & I split a bag of popcorn, but it was more like 1/2 a bag.. I am not a very good popcorn popper apparently because half the kernels didn't pop! Oops.

Food Journal - Day 2 (and maybe some other things)

9:00 - 2 slices of bread and 3 pieces of turkey bacon.
I was pretty hungry before breakfast, but not craving food like I usually am in the morning. I might have to throw that bread out, it was pretty gross - not worth eating at all. I'm not sure why I even ate the second piece - wishful thinking that it would taste good I guess. Planning on pineapple for a morning snack, or a protein shake if I go for a run. It's looking pretty rainy though. Maybe 1/2 english muffin for lunch and I will have to think of something to pack to take to school; I'll be there from 4-8. I'm actually a little stiff from my at home workout yesterday, must be working!

11:45 - pineapple, yum!

1:30 - a whole english muffin plus peanut butter. And some hot chocolate. And I wanted to keep eating. So I danced it out. And brushed my teeth. Maybe this will result in all kinds of good things - cleaner teeth, improved dancing, increased amounts of cardiovascular activity, more endorphins... Maybe. I might make tea next time I feel like chocolate food. I have this awesome peppermint chocolate tea stuff... so delicious! If I could train myself to want that instead of a chocolate bar I would be all set.
Homework time again!

4:00 - a mug of peppermint chocolate tea and some cereal... but when I tasted the milk I am pretty sure it was sour so I spat it back out. Gross. Haven't gotten sick though

5:30 - Caramilk Dark in class... yumm. Also a little bit of pineapple

8:00 - Hamburger & macaroni that C. made :)

11:00 - C. & I walked to McDonald's and I had half a frosty... I had a crazy ice cream craving I just couldn't ignore. Not that I tried super hard. Only had half though, then I got too full/it got too sweet so I gave it to C. to finish.

101 things in 1001 days.

Start date: April 28 2010

Finish date: January 23 2013

incomplete

in progress

completed: 21

1. Donate 500 000 grains of rice using Free Rice (6 000/500 000)
2. Be certified bilingual
3. Learn a third language
4. Read 30 new, non school related books (10/30)
5. Attend at least 3 concerts (1/3)
6. Become a Big Sister (Big Couple?)
7. Ride a horse - south?
8. Go snorkeling - south?
9. Start a real savings fund
10. Try 10 new kinds of tea (3/10)
11. Go tidal bore rafting again
12. Feel good in/LOVE my body!
13. Do a set of kitchen drawings (1/10)
14. See a ballet or play
15. Watch all 3 LOTR movies in a row
16. Go to a Farmer`s market and buy something
17. Own at least one season of Full House
18. Own at least one season of Friends
19. Cook five brand new dishes (5/5)
20. Watch/rewatch all the numbered animated Disney movies (7/40)
1. Snow White & the Seven Dwarves
2. Pinocchio
3. Fantasia
4. Dumbo
5. Bambi
6. Saludos Amigos
7. The Three Caballeros
8. Make Mine Music
9. Fun and Fancy Free
10. Melody Time
11. The Adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad
12. Cinderella
13. Alice in Wonderland
14. Peter Pan
15. Lady and the Tramp
16. Sleeping Beauty
17. 101 Dalmatians
18. The Sword in the Stone
19. The Jungle Book
20. The Aristocats
21. Robin Hood
22. The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh
23. The Rescuers
24. The Fox & the Hound
25. The Black Cauldron
26. The Great Mouse Detective
27. Oliver and Company
28. The Little Mermaid
29. The Rescuers Down Under
30. Beauty and the Beast
31. Aladdin
32. The Lion King
33. Pocahontas
34. The Hunchback of Notre Dame
35. Hercules
36. Mulan
37. Tarzan
38. Fantasia 2000
39. The Emperor`s New Groove
40. Atlantis: The Lost Empire
21. Read the Bible
22. Learn how to drive standard
23. Listen to and love one artist I`d never heard of before
24. Subscribe to a podcast and learn something
25. Hang out with someone I haven`t hung out with since high school or before
26. Try 3 new slowcooker recipes (1/3)
27. Reread all the Harry Potter books (6/7)
28. Own all the Rose books (4/8)
29. Reread all the Laura books (3/9)
30. Expand my Robert Munch collection to 10 (6/6)
31. Buy 5 new books (not for classroom) (5/5)
32. Finish my Alice Munro books (2/2)
33. Plant a garden/window box
34. Go to New Ross Farm
35. Run 5km straight
1. do 5km in under 30 mins
36. Run in a 5km race
37. Hang out with Molly
38. Get another A+
39. Spend 10 days/parts of days volunteering (2/10)
40. Dance it out 30 times instead of eating my stress away!
41. Own a sewing machine
42. Start a quilt
43. Eat with chopsticks at least once
44. Buy (and wear comfortably) a sexy piece of lingerie
45. Give a kid a chance when no one else will
46. Take Laura to a movie
47. Watch one of Laura`s soccer games
48. Watch one of Parker’s hockey games
49. Watch one of Shaun’s hockey games in Halifax
50. See an NHL hockey game - live
51. Learn a new craft (quilting?)
52. Paint a decent picture
53. Bake a pie
54. Make a gluten-free gingerbread house - december
55. Finish Christmas shopping by November at least once
56. Go on a road trip
57. Stay overnight in a hotel just because - december 10th
58. Go to the Dartmouth Sportsplex and go on a water slide
59. Graduate from Ste Anne`s ready to teach en français
60. Beat Super Mario for Wii
61. Beat a game for Gameboy
62. Travel somewhere by train
63. Go to a new province/territory/country
64. Go to an art gallery or museum
65. Make it home in a softball game
66. Learn to stop throwing like a girl
67. Play basketball again, at least once
68. Skate on the lake
69. Learn how to do something I never tried before
70. Go apple picking
71. Go camping in a tent
72. Visit Chéticamp
73. Kiss under fireworks
74. Read all of Jane Austen`s works (2/6)
75. Give something up for Lent
76. Start a blog
77. Watch a sunrise/sunset with Cory - south
78. Buy a QEII Lifestyles Lottery ticket
79. Visit Monique at X
80. Keep an HONEST food journal for a week straight (0/7 days)
81. Score 5 goals in a season
82. Go parasailing - south?
83. Waterski
84. Own a pet of some kind
85. Buy (and wear often!) boots with heels - winter
86. Donate blood at least once
87. Go whale watching
88. Go for walks in three different parks (2/3)
89. Re-read His Dark Materials (2/3)
90. Read a non school related novel en français
91. Get the N off my license
92. Draw with chalk (outside!)
93. Go through my stuff and throw out what I don`t need/use
94. Make a budget
95. Join something new
96. Learn at least three new songs on the guitar (0/3)
97. Make someone`s day (they have to tell me I did!)
98. Help Cory pay off his line of credit & snap-on debts
99. Watch The Secret Garden & A Little Princess (0/2)
100. Own and read Old Town in the Green Groves
101. Attempt 50 newspaper/magazine crossword puzzles (18/50)

More adjustments to be made

Alright, so. I am pretty much sucking on all fronts except the crossword puzzles, of which I am doing about one per weekday while I'm at school. I am très occupé at this time - school is very time consuming! However, summer was not and I still didn't do too much so I can't really say anything. I want to do some adjusting to my goals today I think - I have changed and what I want to accomplish has changed since April 28th.

First of all, the losing 20 lbs goal. I think I am having trouble with this one because losing 20 pounds sounds like a lot, and it isn't really what I want to do. What I want to do is love my body, feel good about my body, and look slamming in my body. And to me, a slamming body is a healthy body - full of muscle and strength and grace. Losing 20lbs probably won't result in too much muscle; when I thinking about losing pounds, I think about avoiding strength exercises because they produce muscle which produces mass. Which might make me heavier (although, I'm sure that if my eating habits were 100% stellar then I would still lose. However, they are not, because exercising makes me want to eat well and I haven't been exercising). That being said, I want to make my new goal: "Feel great about and be proud in my body" and just totally ignore the scale for a little while. I have joined a "learn to run" group thing at the gym, and I think I might be playing in two hockey leagues this season (which might make my score 5 goals in one season goal even more attainable). I would love to join some kind of dance class but I have not very much money so we will have to wait and see about that. But I will still be aiming for the 5km straight and then 5km in under 30mins goals, and I have some workouts I will hopefully (NO, that I WILL!) do at home. And I'm gonna dance it out. I might make that a goal - dance it out 30 times when I am feeling stressed. That might help me choose exercise instead of food. I bet I can get Cory to dance it out with me. For that goal, dancing it out doesn't have to be for a long time - just a song or two. I also just found out that my school is only 3.7kms away, so I am DEFINITELY going to start walking to school a few times a week when it is nice out, especially days like tomorrow when I lunch monitor and then have no class until 4:30 and so would normally drive there twice.

I also have to change my "Join an extra-curricular at USA" because there appear to be no extra-curriculars on my campus to join. So, my goal is now just to "Join something new". That might mean a new hockey league if I play provincial this year, and it might be something totally different. We will see!

I also want to keep a food journal for a week straight. I have to post everything I eat in this blog. It might be gross. Sorry!

I think that's about it for changes right now. After this post I will post an updated list of 101 in 1001.

Food blog: September 27th

7:00am - 1/2 hot chocolate (made with 2 pkgs)
- 1 english muffing with peanut butter

10:00am - a bite of bread
- a 310 calorie (yeah so not worth it) coconut macaroon
- a granny smith apple (not the whole thing really)

I drank about a bottle of water between here and now (3:17pm)

1:00pm - 2 slices homemade corn & rice bread with butter
- probably about 1/2 cup of chocolate chips (gross. they would be the reason I am now feel rather sick after my workout. bleh)


Plans for supper - chicken stir-fry!
I need to buy some chopsticks... where do you even get those?
5:30 - pineapple!
8:30 veggie & chicken stir fry

[slow] progress!

Today I got a gig volunteering... yay! It is one day a week, volunteering at a local elementary school where I am already a lunch monitor so it should be a good time. After 9 weeks I will be able to cross "Spend 10 days/parts of days volunteering" off la liste. I also tried two new kinds of tea today, and bought one! It is delicious, peppermint and chocolate-y.

I have been slack on the running. Boo me. But today I did go to the gym... but know what? It does not give me the same high that running does. Anyways, I put my name down at the gym I work at as "interested in joining a learn-to-run club", so perhaps if that takes off I will really learn to run. And maybe lose some weight, even.

I've also been doing a crossword puzzle a day pretty much since school started. There is a free newspaper there and that is how I spend most of my classes. Oops. But don't worry, I will still be ready to teach en français when I graduate ;)

Anyways, shower time... half an hour till I have to be on the road again!
(I never stop)

It has been so long!

Ahh. First day back. Back to school, back to blogging, back to running, routine... real life. It feels good. The running part feels best... it was my first run all summer and it was AMAZING. I forgot about runner's high. I feel like I can do anything (and I can do anything)!

Since I am feeling so good, despite the risk of coming off as incredibly vain (even though no one else reads this place), I am making a list of everything I love about myself. In particular, my body... because bodies can be hard to love and I think that they are important to love. So first of all...

1. My feet. Without them I could not have done that fantastic run or stood in the most amazing cold shower right after it, completely in love with life. Also they are bigger than most people's so I often get the best shoes.

2. My legs... again, without them, running and standing would not be possible. And they are pretty long. And they let me SKATE. Which lets me play hockey, which is my favourite thing in the world, pretty much.

3. My belly... because that is the one body part that C. tells me he loves on a kind of frequent basis. So how could I not love that?? Also, my belly is the part of me that reverts back to something quite presentable after I start exercising again... it is guiltily and deliciously easy for me to get a 6 pack. I love you belly.

4. Boobs. Gotta throw that one out there. They are not too big and basically not too small... they don't hit me in the face when I run. They are soft. They don't have cancer and I hope they never do. They look good in halter tops when my shoulders make me reconsider wearing them.

5. I love my hair. I really do love my hair. It is blond and so so straight and soft. My hair is the one thing I let myself enjoy about myself when I was younger and had severe body image issues. It is just so straight. And right now long and full of highlights from the sun.

6. My eyes - they are three colours in one! Pretty cool, I think. Green and blue and grey all together. And the rings around my irises are more navy blue than black. They also (with a lot of help from contacts/glasses) let me see so many beautiful things in the run of a day.

7. I love my smile. Because I have so, so many reasons to use it! And I suffered through braces so now my teeth are straight instead of crooked and smiling sans self-consciousness is such a treat.

8. My hands. My hands might be my favourite things about myself. Not because they are especially beautiful (although I do have long piano fingers, despite my nails' complete refusal to grow without breaking), but because of what they can DO. They bake so well. Amazingly well. Sometimes I think C. couldn't leave me even if he wanted to because where else would he find a tall blond that cleans and bakes him amazing things daily? My hands bake with love. There is a gluten-free lemon loaf in the oven right now that my hands made. My hands do other things too - they can draw when I want them too, and play music. I can snap my fingers. My left hand works almost as good as my right if I try real hard. They make C. feel like he is in heaven. My hands are amazing.

9. I love my brain, too. It knows a lot and it surprises me all the time. I don't think I deserve that one, really, but I am very grateful for it. Every time I think it might fail me it performs above expectations, making my whole self perform above expectations, too. My brain gave me a 4.0 and $30 000 scholarship I still don't think I worked hard enough to deserve. And since my brain makes myself think I don't deserve it, it encourages me to help everyone else who might need a bit of my brain power too. Which I think is nice.

10. My arms. They have lifted and loved and comforted so many children since I started working with them. I hope the day never comes that I can't pick up any of my favourite kids and give them all the love they need. My arms are kind of helpful when I'm running, too. And they give C. some really great hugs.

I think I will stop now... I never tell myself how much I love me and it's a bit disconcerting. Maybe if I'm ever comfortable with just loving myself I won't need to hear it so much from C.!

P.S. - The 101 in 1001 is coming along alright - I have 21 completed and planned timelines for a few others. This summer was slow. I'm also signing up with K. to do the CIBC Run for the Cure 5km in October and I am really excited about it!